desperateforhappy

I  am so disgusted with the livejournal community so far.  I have been posting to anorexic queen because Pro ana hasn't accepted me yet and I am so mad I want to scream.  I try to open up in the community and I get nothing.  If I ask a question about cals in an orange I sometimes get someone to say something but I am sick of opening up and no one caring.  Hell, if no one gives a god damned then I should just post to myself because that is what I am doing anyway.   This community is supposed to help me cope with all of this by knowing that there are people out there who are going through the same things but it doesn't.  This community I think is full of stupid 16 year old girls who want to shed a few pounds before homecoming!!!!!!!!  I am sorry if there are people on here with true issues and I am not trying to trivalize anyones problems as there are some girls on here with serious issues but I get frustrated when I am trying to answer all of the serious post and the same girls who complain about not getting responses don't respond.  A bunch of hypocrites!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Like I said, I am not talking about every one on here but I have been a part of this community for a few months and it is a joke the amount of girls who come and go due to losing the 10 lbs they wanted to shed.  Yeah, its really torture to be them!

Hey all, I am new to this site and new to this in general.  I am not however new to ED.  This is one of the first times in awhile that I have felt in control.  I have watched these sites for awhile but have been afraid to post because I am terriefied that I will be judged as unworthy to post because all of you girls seem to be in control so much more then me.  I have been trying to fast for just a day and have up until this point been about as unsuccessful as one can be.  I have been coming to this site and reading what you girls have been going through and it has given me the strength to do it.  I have fasted so far today and I feel great.  I know compared to what some of you girls do this is a tiny feat but for me it is the biggest act of control I have taken in a great while and it feels great.

I don't think I can even relay how good this feels in words. I just hope with time I can help someone else take control the way that I have.

Thank you all